I do not own any of the characters from the show Charmed. This is a work of fiction and is not for profit.


The last thing I remembered was a whirlwind coming in the front door of the manor, knocking my sister and I to the ground. Calling to Phoebe had proved futile, and at the time, I remember thinking 'What's keeping her?' I know now, but at the time, I had other things to deal with. Jumping up, I pushed Dr. Griffith out of the way and then I felt an intense blast of air strike me in the chest and I flew back through the wall. Pain like nothing I had felt before, lasting only for a few seconds, then blackness.

I don't know how long I lay there, but I opened my eye's, and when I did, I found I couldn't move. Try as I might, I could not reach out to Piper laying beside me, her breathing so soft, I almost couldn't hear it. A wave of pain hit me again, and my world turned dark, closing in on me. I knew what was going to happen, and I had just one regret.

I would not be there for my sisters anymore, I had failed to protect them from another loss.

Darkness descended on me, and I knew no more.

I often wondered about those people who said the saw a bright light or a tunnel when they had a near death experience, and now, I know that that is not always true. Maybe that is only for those who don't actually die, because I did, and I did not see a light. One minute I was laying on the floor in the manor, the next I was laying on a couch, and my mom was sitting beside me holding my hand. I looked around, confused, my memories jumbled. How had I gotten here? Where was here? And why was my mother here?

"Mom?" I said, noticing how weak my voice sounded.
"Relax honey." she told me, brushing her hand across my forehead. "I know what your going through right now. Don't try to get up yet."
"What happened?" I asked, and as soon as I said that I knew, I was dead. "No." I gasped as my mother embraced me, rocking me like she did when I was a little girl.

I don't know how long she held me, time has no meaning when your dead. I felt it when another pair of arms wrapped them selves around me, but I didn't realize who it was. One thought ran threw my head like a broken record, I was dead.

"Prudence?" I heard my grams ask as she turned my face to look at her. "I know your confused right now, but if you give us some time, we will explain what’s going to happen."

As I looked into her face, I could see the pain and sorrow that she tried to hid. She was trying to be strong, and for some reason, that just seemed to make it even worse. It was about then that I felt the other set of arms around me, and turning I looked right into the tearful blue eye's of the only man I ever loved, Andy.

He held me like he did that last time on the swings, and I never wanted him to let go, but I pushed him away, I couldn't stay here, I had to go back. I had left my sisters alone, one lost, the other dying, and it was my job to save them. Standing, I ran from them, looking for the door, but I could not find one. All around me it was like a maze, some strange shifting maze that brought me back to that room time and time again.

"No!" I cried after finding myself back there for the tenth time, dropping to my knee's. "No, I have to go back to them, it wasn't supposed to be like this."
"Prue. You can't go back." Andy said as he knelt in front of me. "I know, I tried too. When I died, I wanted to go back so badly, we had just gotten back together, and I didn't want to give that up."
"Prue, it was the same for all of us." mom told me as she joined us.
"You don't know how hard I fought to return when I died. I had left you all alone, and I knew you were there, at the lake."
"No, you don't understand, without me, they are to vulnerable. There will be no Power of Three." I told her as the tears fell onto the polished floor.
"Prue, everyone has a destiny, you fulfilled one, now, it's time for you to fulfill a new one." grams told me, but I didn't care.
"I want to see my sisters!" I said, fear turning to anger, I got to my feet.

It was strange, a feeling like nothing I had known before washed over me, and I saw colors start to swirl around me, all the brilliant, vibrant colors of the spectrum. Transfixed I watched the patterns the formed, bending, folding as they moved around the objects in there path. Turning slowly, I watched as they moved with me, seeming to move as I did.

"Prudeance!" Grams voice finally broke though to me, how I hated that name. "You see it, don't you?" she asked.
"The colors? Yes, what are they?"
"Those are your powers, in this realm. And that is why you are here. Until I can teach you to use them, you have to stay here." she told me.
"No, I can't stay, you can not make me leave my sisters like this!" I was almost shouting at her.
"Show her." mom said softly, tears falling from her cheeks. I never noticed that tears held as many colors as a drop of dew in the early morning light before now.

Walking to the mirror hanging behind the couch, grams moved her hand over the surface of it, and I saw my sisters. Piper was crying on Leo's shoulder, great wracking sobs that seemed to take her very breath away. She was wearing a black dress, and she looked like she had not slept in a long time. Funny thing was, I couldn't help but notice she was wearing water proof mascara. It's funny how something like that draws your attention.

I could hear everything they said to each other, how Piper wasn't sure how she could go on without me and I longed to reach out, to pull her close and tell her it was all a dream, a terrible nightmare that would disappear in the first rays on the morning light. But even as I thought that, I knew, I could not go back.

Grams waved her hand and the scene changed, showing Phoebe when she was all alone in her room, changing into a dark dress. There was no one there to hold her, to brush away her tears as she cried, and a feeling of guilt swept over me. There was my baby girl, the one I had helped raise into a strong, beautiful, smart young woman, and now she was left to deal with her loss all alone. She sat at her desk writing in a diary, and grams moved the picture closer so we could she what the words said.

She was in so much pain because of me. The only mother she had know, and I was gone. Tears filled my eye's as I read her words to me, words I knew she would not share with anyone else. She talked of the times we had fought, wishing she had them to do over again, and the guilt she felt for not being there for me when I needed her. As I read her words, I remembered what had happened, how it had come about, and I knew.

I had saved Piper by telling Leo to make a deal with the Source, but the cost would have been to great if he had not broken the deal. Phoebe would have been his. How I wished to tell her it was better this way, that I would rather give my life a thousand times over then to have her live the rest of her life as his slave.

I knew now I could never go back to them. This was my destiny, to protect my sisters anyway I could, but as I watched them leave the manor, I broke down, crying for all I would miss. I had died and I would forever be a spirit to them. I would be able to watch them go through life, but I would also know all the pain they suffered as they did. I just hoped I would not be seeing either of them here in this room anytime soon.

I watched over my sisters, my heart seemed to be breaking as I saw them being attacked by the Source himself. I wanted so desperately to help them, but I was not allowed. The Elders told me it was still too soon, that I was not yet ready to go to them. I have not excepted that I'm dead they say, that I have to let go of my earthly life, but it's hard.

For the past few months I have watched them without them knowing, seen all the pain they hide from each other, and themselves. I have only had grams and Andy for company most of the time, mom has kept her distance. After my, funeral, when I found out the secret she hid from us for all those years, I made her leave. I felt betrayed by her, like I was by dad when he left us. How could she!

Trying to control my powers was harder after that, and I was to hurt, to confused to even want to try. The one person who I loved unconditionally all my life had kept me from knowing my own flesh and blood. It wasn't a choice Paige or I had made, it was a choice we were never given. I know I will forgive her, in time, but for now, we don't talk much.

I remember watching Piper and Phoebe when they learned of it, at I saw the pain on their faces. My poor baby girl's, I wish I was there for you now. You face the greatest challenge of your lives, and yet still you do not share the same bond as we did. Will it prove to be enough? Can you defeat the Source? A scream draws my attention back to the portal and I see Leo fall, an arrow in his abdomen. No, this can not be happening! I shout, trying to reach you, but to no avail.

No, this is all wrong! You have so much good to do! I was shouting, I knew it, but I didn't care. As I pounded on the magical portal that was showing me all of this, I felt a pair of strong arms wrap themselves around me as Andy came in. He was trying so hard to help me, to make me see that death was not the end, but still I fought him. I had too, if I didn't, I would be giving up on my life.

"Prue, you can't keep doing this." He told me, hold me close.
"Andy, I can't do this. I can't just watch them." I said, as tears of frustration and sorrow coursed down my face. "I was always there protector, their not ready."
"They will have to be. I know you want to help, just like all the times I watched you, knowing there wasn’t a thing I could do to interfere in what you were doing. I saw you after I died, and that hurt me more then anything else." he said, cupping my face in his hand, making me look at him.

As I saw what he was telling me, the love he held for me, I knew he spoke the truth. For every person there was a soul mate, and he was mine. It was the thing that I had been missing for all those years as I watched Piper and Phoebe fight against all odds to be with the men they loved. How could I have been so blind? Why had I been so hard on Phoebe?

Before I died, I made a little peace with Cole, and as I watched him fight the evil that was part of him to be with her these last few months, I knew, if I had the chance, I would go back and not stand in their way. I had been jealous, and I used the fact that he was a demon to try and keep them apart. I suddenly felt like such a failure. How could I have done that?

The reason was obvious, I had lost the man I loved, and Cole reminded me of that because he was half demon, and I blamed all demons for Andy's death, as well as myself. Holding Andy close now I realized I was wrong. I needed to tell Phoebe. Even as I thought that, I heard another noise from that damned portal, and turning, I saw one of my worst nightmare's come to life, the Source was in the manor!

I saw him blow out the wall, and as he hurled a fireball at Piper, I had to do something. Without thinking, I reached out with my powers, watching as the world turned from normal vision into what my powers were here in this realm, pure waves of colored energy. Reaching out, I used them, knowing it would not save my sweet sister, but something happened, something totally unexpected.

Just as the fireball reached Piper, so to did my powers, and wrapped in them, she was spared the fiery death that would have happened, but I was still to weak to keep her from being hurled across the hall, into the wall, and I feared for a second that what Shax had failed at the Source would finish.

"Prue, what?" Andy asked as I slumped back against him,.
"I don't know." I told him, the truth, but how, and why I needed to find out. After everything I had watched Piper suffer through these last months, was this then a blessing, letting me once again protect her? I would find out, I was sure, and at a cost as well. Things were never free.

I lay in Andy's arms, trembling as I watched, fearful, yet calm as well, as my sisters went to the attic. They fought so hard, never giving up, and I knew, they were doing this for me. It was more then just fighting evil, Piper and Phoebe knew he had broken his promise, like evil always does, and that I had died because of it. I wanted to tell them no, that it should not be for this they fought, that I would gladly give my life for them, and I did not want them to fight for vengeance, I wanted them to fight for the future.

The future, something I would not share with them, not in person, but I would always be there for them, even when they didn't know it, I could never truly leave them. I would be there to see my baby's have children of their own, with the men they loved, and I would live the life I lost through them. I may have lost my earthly body, but they were my soul.

No! He was ready to kill them! I saw the fireball form in his hands, but this time, I knew I would not be able to help them. I watched, horrified as Phoebe stood before the others, defiant to the end. I wasn’t sure if I should laugh or cry at her. So brave, so strong, even when faced with her own death. Then, another miracle, Cole, and he saved them, but at what cost I wondered. Would this be his final redemption, or his final curse?

I sat there, Andy holding me tight as I watched the final battle, and felt the pull as they said the spell, calling on all of us who passed before them. The Source could win against the Charmed one's with out their powers, but against the might of the magic that had for generations built to this day he could not prevail. As he vanished into oblivion, I felt a sense of peace settle over me, they had won, against all odds, my sisters had won, but, not without a cost.

When the Hallow was opened, returning their powers to them, what was left of the Sources did not vanish into the void, it filled the part of Cole that was empty. The battle had been won, but their war was building. I would not be able to warn them, and I know that they Elders would not either. The balance must be kept, at any cost. The only comfort I could take was in knowing that it would take time for his power to build back to where he could take them on. I just hoped it would not cost my sister the man she loved.

I saw them all that night, and I heard the toast they gave for me. They were strong, they could survive without me, but, could I survive without them? I would find out, but I was still not alone, I had Andy, and as I write this he waits for me. My powers are now under my control, I had not had that until saving Piper, because that was the last thing I needed to do before I could move on, to face this new world I was in.

I go now to explore the things that no living mortal sees and remembers. I was about to find out the truth of paradise.

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This part deals with my version of what 'heaven' might be. I am not trying to put down any religion, I have just made what I think Prue and Andy will find, so please take notice of this before you read any farther. Thank you.

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Heaven, Valhalla, the Elysiun Fields, The Happy Hunting Grounds. I don't know what other people believe this place where I am, to me, it's a chance at peace, and happiness, a chance to have what I fought so hard to find when I was alive but never quite found. From the beginning of time we have wondered what awaited us after we died, and now, I too will find out the truth, but I still miss what I had, my sisters.

Andy is here with me, my personal guide, and I could not wish for a better one. It has been a week since my sisters fought the Source, their bond now complete, and I find I must try and move on. I have even made peace with my mother, no longer angry at her for not telling us about Paige, she did what she had to, both for us, and her. Grams sat me down and explained to me what it had cost mom to give up her youngest daughter, the grief she hid from all of us as she gave over her child to strangers to raise, knowing she might never see her again. I had been hurt, but mom had suffered enough, and I could not make her pay any longer.

The next day I went and found her as she sat in a room next to mine, she had not left in case I needed her, and with just a look she forgave me, and I her, falling into her arms as we both cried for what we could never get back. I don't know how long we talked, but I found I had a new inner peace when I left, I had found release, both for my anger, and my heart in her arms that day. A mothers love is never diminished, it only waits for the wayward child to return.

Today Andy will show me this world full of beauty and peace. He has tried to tell me of the things he has seen, but I can tell he does not have the words he searches for, now I will see it for myself.

Travel here is so much easier, you just wish to go somewhere, and you are there. Andy holds me close, his arms holding me as he takes me to the places he found. As I open my eye's, I am caught in the breathtaking beauty spread out before me. We are standing on the top of a cliff, over looking the vibrant colors of an autumn forest that lay before us, the mountains alive with birds and animals. In a field below us, the sound of a brook could be heard as it trickled over the rocks.

I watched, amazed as a fawn came out of the woods, making it's way into the open, it's small ears up and its spotted coat in sharp contrast to the purple wild flowers growing there. Bounding across the field, it made it's way the brook, dipping it's head for a drink as it's mother came out to join us. What shocked me was to see that neither one showed any fear, not like the animals I had seen on the documentary’s.

I watched, astounded as from the other side of the field a Puma entered, walking up to the timid deer at the brook, but nothing happened. The predator just looked at the deer, laying down beside the fawn, lapping the water. This was truly a remarkable place I was in, peace in nature, as well as in my soul.

"There is more I want to show you." Andy whispered in my ear, his breath tickling me as I once more felt his embrace. Closing my eye's once more, I leaned back into that place of safety I had missed for those years he was gone.

As I once again opened my eye's, colors floated all around me, and the soft touch of feathery light wings brushed against my cheek. As far as I could see, butterflies wafted on the light breeze, the meandering path of there flight making the very air seem to be alive. Yellow, green, purple and gold mixed with each other, creating a mosaic of colors that took your breath away and left you in awe at the diversity of nature, and the delicate balance of life as it flowed before me.

Again and again Andy took me to new places, never one the same as the last, each one as beautiful as the last, all my worries seem to vanish, and joy filled me. A forest glade, the sent of pine heavy in the air as the sun trickled down through the boughs of the majestic tree's. The light falling on the lush under growth, making the dew that coated the ferns sparkled like tiny diamonds. A wind swept beach, the sounds of gulls floating above us almost drowned out in the crash of the surf on the breakwaters, leaving a calm pool where, in the clear water I could see the colorful living coral.

He took me to the great stone formations of the badlands, and I watched as the great eagles soared on the winds, the currents allowing the enormous birds to spiral in slow, lazy circles, passing each other as though dancing on the winds. The red rocks a perfect backdrop for the dark birds as they dived and rose once more to the blue sky, like some type of elaborate show.

We stood below the great water falls, listening to the roar of the water, feeling the mist as it coated us, and we sat at the edge of the swirling pools of water, letting the warms ease our feet, and wash away our cares. The beauty of these places was more then just the sights, for it was seeing the animals, each living beside the other, non attacking, or running in fear of from another. Predator and prey existed here in harmony, proving that this must indeed be paradise.

On a warm sun kissed hill, under a large maple tree we fell asleep, watching as the sun set over a range of mountains. The sun sank below the horizon, casting its rays towards the distant shore's of other lands, and the fiery reds and oranges of the sunset turned to purple as the sun went down, the clouds catching and holding the light for just a few moments, leaving me stunned at the simple things I have taken for granted.

"There is one last spot I need to show you." Andy said, as I lay with my head on his lap, watching the stars sparkled into existence one by one on the ebony sky. Taking my hand he helped me to my feet, pulling me close as I buried my face against his warm chest.

I looked about me, trying to figure out where Andy had taken me this time, but all I saw was a tall gate of wrought iron, the metal hidden under the ivy that grew all around the intricate patters it held. Pushing the gate open with ease, Andy took my hand, leading me inside, and I found the most beautiful garden I had ever seen.

A cobbled path wound around the beds of flowers, roses, hollyhocks, carnations, violets, the list was endless, the flowers all in bloom, only possible here, in this magical place. We walked, as he pointed out fountains hidden in the beds, and pools of water filled with bright colored fish. Spiral awnings held the climbing flowers and cast shade where it was needed. The sweet smell was not overwhelming but pleasant, making me wish I could stay here in this place.

Walking around a large lilac bush I stopped, surprised by what I saw before me as Andy grinned, and puled me forward with him. Sitting down, he pulled me to him, one arm around my shoulders as he pushed the swing that was nestled in the shade of two tree's, it's form so familiar, for this was where I had last seen him, on this very swing the day he died, in my dreams.

"This is our garden." he told me, looking at me with love in his eye's. "I knew someday you would be here, with me, and I made this place for us. I wanted it to be special, and this swing was the place I truly knew I loved you."
"Andy.." I tried to say, but he silenced my with a finger, placing it on my lips.
"I loved you all my life, from the first time I saw you, I just wish I had told you sooner. You are the other half of my soul, and without you, I was incomplete. I never want to lose you again, and here, in this place, I always had you near."
"I love you, with all my heart." I told him, as I saw his eye's fill with tears.
"Prue," he said, going to one knee before me, "Will you be my wife,
here and now, forever?" he asked.
"Yes," I told him, knowing, somehow, that in this time and place, we were complete.

My heart beat against my chest, I knew I was home, in the one place I had searched for, I was with my soul mate, and from now until the end of time I would always have this one moment forever in my mind. The day we joined our hearts, one to the other, for eternity.