Disclaimer: The Charmed Characters are the property of Aaron Spelling and Constance Burge. I just borrow them for your enjoyment and my writing addiction. Lyrics beloong to Eric Clapton and Wills Jennings, 'Tears in Heaven'


Another Year Gone by Without You…


Phoebe sat in the backyard thinking of anything and nothing. But her mind and heart drifted to one spot no matter how hard she tried not to, especially this time of year.

Her mind took of in directions she wasn’t ready for. Or maybe she was. It was just yesterday she saw her best friend running up to her and pulling her into a hug, and she had no idea why. But as the words came from her friend’s mouth her world came to a sudden stop sending her back a step.

Would you know my name?
If I saw you in heaven
Would it be the same?
If I saw you in heaven

I must be strong
And carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven

She placed her hands over her face as she pushed, and held back the tears that were threatening to cascade own her face.

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Piper stood in the kitchen fussing about anything she could toss together for lunch for her and her sisters.

It was a rare weekend when the three of them had nothing to do. No photo shoots no sudden demon attacks and no crisis at the club. It was just the three of them. Sisters spending time together

But deep in her heart Piper know it was more then that. More then a deep feeling of sister wanting to be together. This week symbolized her youngest sisters’ greatest pain. Her greatest loss since Grams died.

Piper looked out the kitchen window and saw Phoebe sitting on the hammock. She had on his lucky hat: Anaheim Angels. She felt her heart reach out to her baby sister. Four years now. Did it ever get any better?

Would you hold my hand?
If I saw you in heaven
Would you help me stand?
If I saw you in heaven

I'll find my way
Through night and day
'Cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven

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Prue sat on the chair looking out to her youngest sister. She felt the pain she was feeling and that she felt every time the anniversary of Andy death past. But to her this was worst. She knew Troy had seen him grow up next to her Phoebe. And not only did her heart ache for the loss of a friend it ached for her sister who lost to her, a baby brother.

She had set it up day before with her boss. She wanted a day of a day to spend with her sisters. A day to spend with Phoebe. He had been understanding. The deaths had effect an on a lot of people in town. Someone knew of someone else with a connection to the plane.

But as Prue watched her sister fight her inner battle she stood up and made her way across the lawns. Sitting own beside Phoebe she took her in her arms and let her cry out her pain and loss once again. Never once did Prue let go and never once did Phoebe fight away the love that was offered.

“Hold him in your heart honey. As I know that is where he is. To you always and forever.” Prue offered few words to help her sister through the day. “All you have to do is keep his memory alive inside you now matter where or when in your life you are. He will always be there.”

Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart
Have you beggin' please
beggin' please

Beyond the door
There’s peace I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven

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Phoebe leaned in against Prue as they all sat at the bar at P3. Piper handed each of her sisters a small shooter glass.

“If I recall that was his favourite.” Piper held her eyes to Phoebe who smiled weakly at her sister before taking the shot in her hand.

“To Troy. A dear friend always and forever. You lived life hard and fast but partied harder and faster. I will keep you in my heart always my friend my brother, I love you.” Phoebe held up her glass as she felt the tears start to trickle down her face. Though as she tossed back the B-52 shot she whispered to herself and Troy. “I love you.”

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Phoebe sat next to Piper in the small alcove as the last of the P3 customer dwindled out of the club. They watched as the staff bustled around cleaning up from the night’s work.

Piper pulled her baby sister closer to her. “You ok sweetie?”

Phoebe at first didn’t say anything her mind was on memories. “I am now. I still miss him Piper.”
“I know you do sweetie. But you know he will always live in your heart?”
“I know. Still not the same.” Phoebe said quietly as she just rested against her sister.
“I won’t sit here and tell you it will get easier honey. Because I know it won’t. But you know he is always watching you and loving you. And one day you will see him again.”

The soft music playing in the background as the club wound out its night for the staff. All Phoebe heard was the words.

Would you know my name?
If I saw you in heaven
Would it be the same?
If I saw you in heaven

I must be strong
And carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven

'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven

Phoebe looked up and saw her friend Laura making her way across the bar after hors.

“I was thinking I would find you here.”
“Here I am.” Phoebe said as she took a sip of her wine.

Laura sat next to her friend as the two of them just sat taking in each other’s love. A love they knew was missing one piece. And always would until they were together again, in heaven.

Phoebe sat and wondered if it was true. Would he remember them when they crossed paths again? Would he hold that same love for the tow of them? But she knew deep inside he would. They had been siblings to the words other then blood, but after everything they had been through even that were true. She would hold him dear and love him always until the day they would see each other in heaven and know each other’s name.




In loving memory of my best friend Troy. Tragically taken from me on this day August 13, 2001. I will always love and remember him. Forever holding on to a piece of both our hearts. Till we meet again Troy. Always remember my name.

Love Di