Two disclaimers needed. For Charmed: I do not own the characters or settings from Charmed. They belong to the WB. I just write for my enjoyment and the hopeful enjoyment for others.

Evanescence: Although your songs are magical and I hope to one day be able to write like your writers, I don’t and this song belongs to those fantastic artists.


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January 27 was the date and she stood, tears in her lovely chocolate deep eyes, near the coffin that held her husband. Why? Why did she have to leave him because of that?

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I'm so tired of being here
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“He was a great friend, a great brother, an angel at the least. Standing by us all.” Her sister had tears in her eyes as well. He was so wonderful to them all, his blonde hair and green eyes. They sparkled when he laughed. They were comforting when she cried. They were loving to everyone.

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Suppressed by all my childish fears.
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Her fears had consumed her. He called her fearless but she was far from it. Most of all, she was scared of loving him. It seemed everyone she’d loved was gone. Her mother. Her grandmother. Her sister.

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And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
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‘But you DIDN’T have to! You could have been here as their father! He was after me! Why didn’t you let him take me?’ She yelled at herself. Her fourteen-year-old son stood beside her and her eleven-year-old daughter clutched her shaking hand.

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'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
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It never would. He was always there. He was with her every minute since the day she’d met him.

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These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
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But why? Why could the bad things not be erased? Then he’d still be there with her, holding her hand, wiping her tears.

And why? Why was it so real? The pain. Unbearable it was. Her wounds visible through her ever deeper eyes. Her son’s wounds planted plainly on his face. Her daughters in her no longer existent smile.

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When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
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And he always would. Until the day forever ended, he would have her heart, her soul, everything of hers.

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You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
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The wonderful aura that surrounded him in every moment. That wonderful smile that stopped her in mid-breathe.

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Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
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But, she missed his voice so. All the comfort it brought. All the relief it gave. All the love it possessed.

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These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
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“I came into this family a little later than the others but he welcomed me the minute, no the second he knew. He was…a friend. A brother. A guide. An angel and so much more.” The woman stepped down from the podium, tears in her once bright, vibrant eyes.

He had stolen them. Their hearts. Their smiles. He had taken all of them to his grave.

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I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
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Until he came.



The procession was over and she and her children had returned to their home. His presence was still lingering in the large home. She watched her son approach the piano. She smiled through her tears. He had not approached the instrument since his wonderful father had fallen saving his mother. He stretched his hands and closed his precious green eyes. He placed his small fingers on the keys and pressed down gently, promoting a wonderful sound.

She watched as her lovely daughter walked gracefully over and stood next to her older brother.

“I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me”

All in the room were crying when he finally withdrew the hands his father had given him.

“You still have all of me.” She finally spoke. She hadn’t in days. “And you always will.”


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If you ever read this, you’ll know exactly who you are. And, Thank you a million times over. The times you’ve wiped my tears and fought my fears over the past three and a half years is uncountable.